Friday, February 12, 2010

ok so TONIGHT!

I really have to stop putting this off. I need to do more songs to post on youtube. I guess I've been busy lately, but that should really be NO excuse. No giving up and forgetting about it for me!! I'm thinking "Be Italian" should be tonight. Here's hoping!

So this weekend is Valentine's day. I'm quite excited for that :-) The husband and I are going out for dinner at Restuarant Muramoto. We've never been there, so that in itself is an adventure. Which reminds me...I should print directions, otherwise I'll never get there, haha. I hope everyone has a good Valentine's day!!!!

Monday, February 8, 2010


My voice is back to normal! Now when singing, my higher notes don't sound like a wounded cat. was that bad. Plenty of projects for this week. I'm hoping to accomplish these 3 things in 1 week.

-Help design/make a purse with my daughter Jade.
-Finally sing, "Be Italian" from NINE.
-Make my dress for Valentines day!

So those are my goals for this week!

I'm trying to plan things to make this year go by faster. In November, we're going to Disney World..that's right. Disney World. I can't tell you how insanely excited I am for this! I'm seriously as bad as a child. I can't sleep at night, I can't stop thinking about it. It just can't come fast enough! I'M SO EXCITED! This time, we'll be there for a week!
Why are you going in November you ask? Because we're going the week of my daughters birthday. It's a surprise too, and I'm so excited to surprise her. When we're boarding the plane, I'm just going to say, "we're going on a trip Jade!" I'm just so happy that I can give her this. I really am. I love my mom, with all my heart, and I wouldn't change my childhood for anything. My mom struggled though. She had an absent/abusive husband. She went from being a housewife, to getting 3 full-time jobs in order to support us. There's no way she could have afforded, or even had been able to get the time off to take us out on fancy vacations. I just have to thank the Lord, because he has blessed us so much. He blessed me with a good husband, and 2 amazing children. We're not rich, but we have what we need, and I thank God for that. My mom did literally everything she could for us, and that woman deserves to live in a house made of pure gold, for everything that she has done for us. I hope that one day, I can do the same for her. I love you mama!

So back to my Florida "itinerary". We will be there, 7 days and 6 nights. We'll be staying in some of the Disney World Resort Hotels, and the parks we plan to visit: The Magic Kingdom (of course), Animal Kingdom, Hollywood Studios, and Epcot. It's going to be so fun! We'll also be sure to go to Downtown Disney, and some beaches. We're thinking Cocoa Beach. I think that one is the closest to Orlando? My husband wants to go Shark Fishing! Crazy right? The man is afraid of sharks. That's just so how he is though. He loves to face his fears head-on. I love that about him :-) I love lots of things about him, but his ability to just overcome whatever he wants, is one of the most appealing things to me.

Well enough of my jabbering. Adios!

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

I have it!

Don't you hate when you write some music, that you really love, that just feels so right, and there are no words to go with it? Well, this is obviously the case with me. I've written a piano piece, and I love it. I really do. I did put some words to it, but it just didn't seem right.

There are certain topics that I have been aching to get out somehow, but not sure how to incorporate it. So last night, I was playing my keyboard, trying to figure it all out. Then it hit me...Oh my gosh...this is it, this is the song where I can start trying to get my message across. Anyways, a lot of times in music, while you're creating it..well then you start getting all sorts of ideas. I was up til' 1 in the morning, my brain was hard at work, and I just kept writing ideas down. I've decided, I'm not very good expressing myself know..talking to other people how I feel. If I were to make an album, I know what it'd be. I know the title, some other songs/topics. It just feels so good to have those creative juices flowing. So this is my next youtube project. I need to start getting my own songs written and finalized, and I need to perform my pieces for the world. While there are some topics I'm still uncomfortable with sharing, I need to do it. In the meantime I will continue as promised, and do "Be Italian", from the NINE soundtrack, but I now finally have a job to do, and it feels so good.

Monday, February 1, 2010

Monday MONday MONDAY!!!

My least favorite day of the week.

I shouldn't complain about having to get up and go to my job...ever, especially in these times. However, it hasn't made hearing that alarm go off during my peaceful sleep any easier to hear.
Every time I open my eyes..I seem to be back at Monday. Where did the weekend go? Yesterday, I had the stupid idea of not doing anything, so that Monday could not come. I don't know why...but at the time I thought that would work. I ended up doing things anyways, so that plan failed, but still.

Is there anyone else out there, who hates the same robotic routine of the 5-day work week?
-Wake up
-Get ready
-Drag to work
-Sit at your desk for 8 hours
-Go home
-Eat dinner
-Put children to bed
-fix up the house

& Repeat for 4 more days.

I don't know why this bothers me. It's a stable, safe lifestyle, but I just need variety.
At the same time, I still feel like a spoiled brat for even complaining about my stable lifestyle.

So this weekend was good. I went to my Mom's play on Friday, she did excellent! I'm glad she did the play too. The only reason she even went out for it, is because I dragged her down there, haha. I told her though, I knew she'd get her part...and of course, she did! When I was watching the play, I couldn't help but feel sorry for my mom. I'd never seen her have so much fun, and I have never seen her as comfortable. She was where she belonged. Sure, she's very successful in her current job. She too, is living a very stable lifestyle. She too, wanted to go on broadway, be an actress, singer, etc. This is why I need to make this right. For both of us. I need to get out there, so I can get her out there. So WE can both be doing what we were made to do! Oh mama...don't worry, we'll make it...