My addiction? One word. Shopping. I've decided that I need to stop buying everything I want. It's like I have this horrible "need" to get whatever it is that pleases my eye, but once I swipe my debit card the guilt washes over me, and I no longer get the rush I used to get when buying that cute shirt that I've had my eye on for awhile now.
It's all a mental game really. The mind is so much more powerful than we give it credit for. I can tell myself something everyday until I really start to believe it. So when I'm walking through a store, and I see something nice? I play it down. I tell myself, "it's only fabric. It'd only be an impulse buy. I don't need it. etc etc." So far, it's been working. My family and I are planning to buy a house, and when we do get that house. We'll need to have some $$$ saved. We'll be paying property taxes. We'll be fixing things up....and the funny thing is, is that I'm scared. You see with renting, it's no strings attached really. The outside? Mowed and shoveled by the landlords. When I want to move, I just say "Adios!" when my lease is up, and I'm out. With a house? You're tied down. Even when you've put so much money into it, updated the appliances. There's a good chance no one will want to buy it. That part is hard for me. When it came to my husband, I was ready to commit, but with a chunk of land and a house perched on it...I just can't. Sounds a bit backwards, but yes, I'm a commitment-phobe with settling down into a house.
My husband has been wanting to buy a house. So I'm putting my fears aside, and I'm just riding with it. It normally takes me a while to accept change when everything was going well in the first place.
So this is the reasoning for me to quit spending like I have. More money to be spent, more bills to pay...ohhh the joys of being an adult.
Friday, April 16, 2010
Well I posted "Twice" by Little Dragon up on Youtube. Here's hoping for some good results.
Also, I got my wig. It's not..."quite" what I wanted, so I'm hoping it would be able to stand heat, so that I can curl it how I'd like it to be...here's hoping!
Something kinda just clicked in me last night. I need to get my butt moving. My husband is going to enlist in the guard. He's taking chances. He's doing what he always wanted to do. Now why have I not?? I do small occasional projects, but I need to be doing more. So last night I'm sitting there, and ideas for songs just keep flying around in my head. I get on my piano, and it all begins. I love being inspired. Thank you Cory for inspiring me.
(for those of you who don't know, Cory is my husband.)
Friday, April 9, 2010
So I found a red curly wig. Not "exactly" like Karen Elson's, and not quite the vibrant red I was hoping for, but it shall serve it's purpose ;-) One step closer to being able to do my mad-hatter photoshoot. Now the next thing...what do I wear? I know for sure I'll be wearing a black pencil skirt, and also my cobalt blue heels, for the shirt..etc..I'm still undecided. I want more color somehow. Either way, my wig should arrive in a few weeks, and I'll be postin' the pics here!
Until next time...
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Well, I haven't posted a blog for quite some time. I will admit to slacking on my youtube postings as well. That really doesn't help me any, does it? I can blame my family issues, I can blame being tired, but really it's only my fault, and my fault alone. If I want to achieve my goal, I NEED to get back on board, and get motivated. I've decided for my next project, I should cover a song that is closer to the type of music I'd like to create myself. The song I will be performing, is "Twice" by Little Dragon. It's a very haunting song, yet very simple. My only regret is that I don't have the equipment to make the special effects like in the original version. So that's my musical project. I also have another project that I have been itching to do. I need to find a bright red curly wig. No..not Annie style, but like Karen Elson's (New model for St. John). Then I will do my make-up "Mad-hatter" themed. I also have a tiny tophat. I want to model some photos with this theme in all sorts of odd poses. Then I'll post them on here! It'll be so much fun ;-)
Until next time ;-)