Monday, June 10, 2013

I said it's too late.

Well helloooooo there!

As mentioned in my last post, a new cover was in the works.  Well fortunately, it all came together much sooner than all the other covers I had done.  A few weeks ago, I sat down, and I had no plans going in...but for some reason, my fingers just started playing.  Once I realized what I was playing, I went to my computer looked up the song, and realized..."Yep...same notes and all!".   

Must have been fate.  

As always, I change things, and I don't play the songs exactly as you would normally hear them. I like to add, or take things from them.  Admittedly, I hadn't listened to this song for quite some time.  My music lists are so full of newer things, and still trying to find even MORE new music.  (I obsession).  For some reason though, this song came to me, and I remembered how much the melody stopped me in my tracks when I had first heard it, and I still like that song to this very day.  (obviously)

Apologize - One Republic cover as performed by Raquelashakti

You see, this week is different than others.  This week, my husband is hiking the Appalachian trail.  Random, right?  Things seem to be fairly last minute in this house, and even when there's an idea up in the air, there's normally very little chance that it will actually even happen.  Seems not too long ago, my entire little family took an adventure to Florida!  

Alas, we were financially able for once (which never happens), and the timing worked out great...which also never happens.  So I'm happy for him.  I'm also happy for myself too.  Everyone needs their alone time, right?  Since my husband has changed shifts at his job, the night is no longer mine.  I used to get a few hours every night to myself.  During this time, I would work on music, my blog, etc, etc.  Well when there's someone a foot away from you at all times now during "your time", it makes finding time for those things rather difficult.  

If anyone knows me at all, I'm a creature who thrives on my alone time.  A time for silence, and creativity.  Just a few hours to be in my own head with no interruptions.  Up until the day I got married, I wasn't the girl who spent every minute with her friends.  I came home and spent hours holed up in my room.  My music was blasting, and I had no interaction with anyone for just a few hours.  The great thing, is that everyone in my house respected that about me.  I would normally go upstairs for dinner, and my mom would be up there, and we'd sit at the table, eat our dinner, talk for quite some time.  Then I'd return downstairs, and she'd do her own thing too.  That was always something, and still to this day that I've always appreciated.  Either my mom is very much the same, or she just realized who I was, trusted I wasn't some "angsty" teen with a drug problem (which I assure you, I was not.), and just left me alone.  Being there when I needed her, and keeping her distance when I needed that as well.  

So when you have social children, and a social can be..."mentally demanding".  I love them all to death.  They are my most favorite people in the world.  I do the best I can from 7:30 am until 8:30 pm.  After that, I am mentally drained.  So those few hours to shut down are crucial for me.  I do, however, loathe sleeping alone.  It certainly is a wonderful thing to have a husband who is probably the most comfortable human being in the world.  

I'm glad we both get this chance.  I'm glad he's off in the wilderness doing what he loves.  "Roughing it", as I would say.  I try to imagine what he's currently seeing, and I can't help but wonder if he's taking a deep breath of some fresh night air right now.  In a weird way, I feel like I can experience it with him, even though I'm not there.  The smells, the breezes, the sights, all small pieces of nature that bring a smile to my face.  I just imagine he feels the same way, and rather than be sad that he's not here, I just think of these things, and think "He's probably having the time of his life", and I'm literally overwhelmed with happiness.  

So I make this most of this time, and enjoy myself, while I'm sure he is as well.  

This time alone, means more time to work on music, this blog, and getting our girls out on more adventures!

Au Revoir.

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